First of all, I would just like to say tht I am feeling extremely fortunate as i am typing this sentence.

Today must be my most 'memorable' HISTORICAL day since i got my driving license. Being da Princess tht i am, perhaps you still didnt know, i have not walked ever since i knew how to drive.

Oh well, my car had been sent to da workshop for some servicin n repairs. Anyways, i was home with my grandma today n so i offered to accompany her to the Pasar Malam in da evening, since i havent had alot of time to spend with my family during college days. 

So off we went at abt 5pm, happily (or at least i thought so). Had 25bucks tucked in da back pocket of my denim shorts, i wanted to buy some junk food when we got thr. Hope 25 is enough, coz wanna treat my bro some junk as well. The walk thr wasnt vr long, i enjoyed being outside for a change.

Okayy, so once we arrived, my grandma started buying like crazy. Anythin n everythin tht was heavy. Watermelon, giant bananas, half a cempedak (thts bcoz they didnt have a whole cempedak on sale at da moment), pineapple. And other less heavy ones tht seem insignificant already at da moment, since my fingers were already red n almost-broken from the bags of stuff tht she bought.

Passed by lots of junk food stalls. Thought of buying, but da enormity of pain on my fingers cancelled off every single thought tht i had, except for one. < HOW AM I GOIN TO WALK HOME CARRYIN ALL THESE??! > Shyttttt... And she was happily jumpin arnd (okay, mayb she wasnt jumpin) from one stall to another, swingin da only plastic bag (of Satay) on her little finger.

Then when she finish buying edible stuff. She went on to a few stalls at d end. Insisted on buying slippers for my sis n i, n so she chose 2 pairs of slippers. I told her politely tht she didnt have to (Actually wht i meant was tht they all look like crap) but she went on n on n on so i finally gave in and simply pointed at da nearest pair. Okay she paid for them. Identical slippers for my sis n i! My first present from my grandma! Wooo~ (yeah right) Then she made me take of my slippers to put my new ones on. Oh right, im quite happy with tht coz the wet ground was makin my NOSE slippers dirty, so i slipped them on. Look down at my feet, and all i could say was EEEEEWWWWW but obviously i didnt.

After tht, da lingerie stall was next in line. She asked me if i brought money n i said yeah. She said i had to get one of those bras, just 7 bucks it seems. EWWWWWWWW (I wonder if it showed on my face) I told her again, as politely as i can, "Bu yao la, wo jia li hai you" (as in Duwan la, i still have mine at home in Mandarin) She still insisted, n started talkin REAL loudly. "Why yr breast so expensive ah? Need to wear 50 bucks bra!" (in Hokkien) And everyone turned to look, obviously (if i was a passerby also i turn la) Ishh.. my breast wht, my pasal larr! Even if dont wear also my pasal! Arghhh..

Oh well, then she bumped into some of her friends thr (all da aunty aunty dekat my neighbourhood la).. They offered her a ride, but they said thr was only one seat left. I told them its okay, i can walk home by myself (n i tot they will take da bags on my hands home). Wht really happened was tht she hopped into da car with da little Satay plastic bag n they drove off. I walked home all alone. Well, not really alone la, i had my best friends Mr. Watermelon, Mr. Banana, half of Mr. Cempedak, Mr. Pineapple n lots more!

Okay, then on my way home, these few kiddos in secondary school uniform on bicycles stopped by me n said "Hey xiao mei mei, hao ma?" (As in Hey little girl, how are u? in Mandarin) I smiled weakly n walked on, tryin to ignore them n thought to myself <Im older than u la idiot> Oh but they hafta follow me n said "Yi ge ren ah?" (Are you alone?) <Like duhh, u see anyone else here?> Followed by, "Ni hen ke ai" (Yre vr cute) Ignore, ignore. They kept whispering n makin funny noises behind me. Finally i had enough, i walked to one of the hses n pretended it was my own. I said "Wo papa mama zai li mian" (My parents are at home) and smiled. They said bye n rode off.

Gosh, if i could file a case of Child Abuse against my gma i would have done so. But im no longer a kid. I didnt spend a single cent from my 25 bucks. And i miss my car. Arghh. My fren is now remindin me abt Lisa Marie Presley who said "Stars cannot whine". I know tht, but im a Princess, and princesses do. Arghhhh!

If you think da   four magic letters   tht can drive girls crazy are B-O-Y-S, think again.

To me,  S-A-L-E   is more like it. Especially when theyre printed out in bold, red-n-white fonts. Oh u will nv understand how the magic works, it just does.

Finally finished my semester. Still feeling a little drowsy and sick from all the sleepless nights, which prolly is the post-stress syndrome. Making things worst, im havin some problems with someone. Plus holidays would mean less contact with my collegemates who had always been thr for me thru my ups and downs. Plus plus, Fuikiat is back in his hometown. Haih.

But at least i still have my   four magic letters   till mid june.

1. Establish a regular bedtime and waketime schedule, and maintain it. Avoid delaying your bedtime by more than one hour and if y're sleepy in da daytime, get a nap.
2. Most people of our age (or rather, MY age) need between 8.5 and 9.25 hours of sleep each night.
3. After lunch, avoid having coffee, colas or alcohol. They are all stimulants that disrupt sleep.
4. Relax before going to bed. Avoid flickering light or stimulating contents.
5. Say no to all-nighters. Staying up late can cause chaos to your sleep patterns and your ability to be alert the next day ... and beyond.

1. I cant maintain by bedtime-waketime schedule nor can i delay my bedtime, because i simply dont have one.
2. I think i get abt 3 hours of sleep each night (if i have da time go to bed). Err, not really each night la, i go to bed only after noon da next day.
3. I have coffee and cola at any and every time of da day. To the extent tht i think it starts no make no significant effect anymore, besides yellowin my teeth.
4. If you consider cleanin up da room or washin off the glue/ink stains on my hands after one long night of work relaxing, then yeah, i do relax before i sleep.
5. I dont stay up late. Most of da time i dont sleep at all.

Hmmph.. Guess u could call me a lousy blogger now. It had been almost 2 weeks since my last entry. Im so very terribly sorry for not updatin as frequent now, but plz do pardon me for i am goin thru some (ahem!) changes in my life now (and also, busy with college)

Alright, since im quite terribly drained right now i shall declare this post to be highly un-entertainin n purely informational (updates of my life la, haha, not like u wanna know rite?) But wht da heck, im so sick of living my life for others n this is my blog so u will just hafta bear with me or leave la! Muahaha.

Okay, here we go. In da past 2 weeks...

I WAS BUSY WITH: Fui Kiat and Fui Kiat and Fui Kiat and my tons of assignments tht is piling up constantly every moment, even as i type now. Plus, I had an Environmental Science class trip to Bkt Merah Laketown Resort last weekend. Plus plus, the SOUL Architecture Workshop is coming up (17th to 22nd Apr) so we have some preparations to do. Plus plus plus, History Test 2 will b on 25th Apr so i will hafta research + study my butt off again.

I MISSED: Lotsa Sleep. My family. My bed n my piggy pillow n my blanket. And some classes (Overslept la, hehe!) Oh, not to forget, my Yoga sessions as well.

I DIDNT MISS: My grandma! Like, duhhh! And da chores at home.

I HAD MY: Hospital check-ups. Left side mirror replaced. Car fixed n serviced. Already-severed eyebags enlarged. Killer-design for my art gallery approved by evil Mr Why. Yayyy!

Hmmph cant think of anythin else ady. But everythin's quite fine with me la. Had all my meals, never hungried. Guaaaai leh? (Aiyar, i big girl ady la ok? Dont keep askin me to eat, i will naturally eat when i am hungry!)

Anyway, i think my next post will come, like, a week later. I promise i will find some blog-worthy to post! Promise promise promise. Anyway just informin yaa.. Da coming week:

I WILL NOT BE ARND. I will b attending an almost-one-week-long-architectural-workshop in UPM (thts in Serdang) from 17th to 22nd April. Hmmph i dunno if i m really excited coz stewpid Mr Why is not so keen on lettin us go for da workshop so he's prolly not goin to extend our studio datelines. Plus, its like gettin in da way of all my submissions of all my other subjects n my tests. Arghh.

I WILL CONTINUE TO GROW MY EYEBAGS. Yahh they say goin to da workshop would be soooo fun, but i think i will hafta bring my history Building List thr to research n study. Argh. And i will hafta work on my drawings on my studio design. Hope all goes well for me. 

I WILL LOOK FOR AN INTERNSHIP. For da coming semester break. Industrial Trainin is one of da most important things to an Architecture student, so haih, hafta work for no $$ during da holls lor! Anyone know anywhr to work? Preferably in Subang or PJ so i dont hafta travel too far to work. Plz inform me ya?

Okay la, quite detailed right.. my report? Haha. Just informin la, i know u guys kan cheong me. Dont worry lo, i will take care of myself! So NOW: IM GOING TO TRY TO FINISH UP MY HISTORY AND LAW. Ciaoz peeps, miss ya all!

Please tell me its okay to hate.

I cant stand my life at home with my grandma anymore. She makes my life miserable. Intentionally or not - she still does make my life miserable. Sometimes i just wish i wasnt born in my family, or mayb born as a boy into my family. Hate this....

Im sick today. Skipped college. Migraine. Vomit. My knees were weak, couldnt even stand up straight. Then thr goes her "WEIIII WEIIIII WEIIIIIIIII" (My pet name at home is Wei) I could only let out a weak "Harrr?"

"WEIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!"

"WEEEIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!"

I tried to get out of my bed to go downstairs immediately but tht prolly took me a long 5 mins i think. When i got downstairs she gave me a biggggg slap on my shoulder, i almost fell.

Gma: Wht took u so long? U deaf ahh? (all conversations in Mandarin) 
Me: No la, i answered u but u didnt hear.
Gma: Then u dunno how to come down ah?
Me: Thr.. i come down ady wht!
Gma: Yaaa, after one hour is it? If got emergency, wait for u i also die ady!
Me: Im sick ma! Im here ady la, wht u want?
Gma: Dont pretend sick la. Call u do work then sick ady.
Me: Im really sick!
Gma: Yala yala. Faster.. Fetch me to my fren's hse!
Me: Now? I dont know if i can drive, i cant even walk properly. Tonight can ah?
Gma: Now la. ANd dont pretend ady.
Me: I really cannot. I duwan accident. Tonight la?
Gma: Yaaa when u wanna go out with yr all yr boy frens then u wont b sick one! 'Fat hau' arr?
Me: No.. I really sick now!
Gma: Faster.. Take yr car keys.
Me: *really no energy to argue ady* Aiyah, i really cannot la. Tonight i fetch u thr la. *Start to walk away*
Gma: Wahh big ady, then smart ady la! Nonit listen to me anymore la! *Bla bla bla blaaaaa*

Argh she's really killing me.. real LOUDLY. I really cant stand her voice buzzing arnd my ears constantly. Okay back to da topic.

I was lying down like a dead fish on my bed n i felt someone pinch my legs. I look up, and thr she was. *Bla bla bla bla blaaaa* "Faster, fetch me out now! NOW!!" Arghh then i decided, aiyar okay la, if accident also die together la, who cares! So i had to send her to her frens place, wait for her for more than an hour, then bring her home. How i wish i had da guts to just dump her thr n lose her forever. But aih, im so useless. Haha. But thnk goodness we didnt die in a car wreck today. Only some close encounters, but im still vr much alive.

Then when we were back home, i had to make her lunch n iron her clothes. I simply do la tho, no energy for perfection today. And if she gets food poisonin today, it must be me. Muahahaha! How i wish! Just another unrealised evil thought. Blah. Arghh.

Thnk goodness i have so many frens tht love n support me. Or i dunno how i'd survive. Im now contemplating if it is okay to hate. For now I dont hate my gma bcoz it is my life-long principle to NOT hate someone. But thts prolly d only reason thts holding me back from hating her. I am THIS <-> close to hating her! Arghh. Someone plz safe me from this mess!

So is it okay to hate?

Mayb da cupids are fooling arnd. Or perhaps thrs a season for breakups..? Everyone arnd me is suddenly single again. Relationships arnd me tht have always given me da hope tht, perhaps, thr is everlastin love are all, suddenly, gone.

Having my MSN nick changed to 'Liv feels like a Princess!', i suddenly received msgs from my girl friends sayin, "How i wish i could b a Princess too!" and followed by frown/crying emoticons. I dont know wht to say. Im not vr good at comfortin ppl, especially.. err, girls who just broke up.

Princesses...

First thing tht comes to mind is prolly da nice hair n sweet smile. Da beautiful dresses n glamorous balls. Better, da handsome Prince Charming. N da money n da power. .... and then, err, "Happily Ever After" lo! How we'd all wish to live in this fairytale life we tell ourselves!

But c'mon la, we all know nothin is a fairytale. Even Princess Diana had to go thru a tough, painful divorce. Then die so ugly in a car wreck. This is reality. Thr are ups n downs in Life. We all know tht.

Its up to us to define who we are. To me, a Princess finds happiness in da toughest times. She picks herself up after she falls. She moves on, while others stop n linger n hold on to da past. She loves n care for herself as others would.

So do YOU want to be a Princess?

"If God had intended for women to be stomped on and to be degraded, He would have created Eve from the bones of Adam's foot. Instead, He created her from his rib cage - close enough to his arms so that she will be protected, and close enough to his heart so that she will be loved."

Sweet one. I am not a naive, gooey-eyed girl who is easily swayed by the utterance of sweet nothings. But I'll make an exception for this one. Perhaps the assignment stress has made me a little bit crazy (or crazier, if you talk to some people).

P/S: I am not a Christian, nor a Muslim. Just wanted to bring this up.