Please tell me its okay to hate.

I cant stand my life at home with my grandma anymore. She makes my life miserable. Intentionally or not - she still does make my life miserable. Sometimes i just wish i wasnt born in my family, or mayb born as a boy into my family. Hate this....

Im sick today. Skipped college. Migraine. Vomit. My knees were weak, couldnt even stand up straight. Then thr goes her "WEIIII WEIIIII WEIIIIIIIII" (My pet name at home is Wei) I could only let out a weak "Harrr?"

"WEIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!"

"WEEEIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!"

I tried to get out of my bed to go downstairs immediately but tht prolly took me a long 5 mins i think. When i got downstairs she gave me a biggggg slap on my shoulder, i almost fell.

Gma: Wht took u so long? U deaf ahh? (all conversations in Mandarin) 
Me: No la, i answered u but u didnt hear.
Gma: Then u dunno how to come down ah?
Me: Thr.. i come down ady wht!
Gma: Yaaa, after one hour is it? If got emergency, wait for u i also die ady!
Me: Im sick ma! Im here ady la, wht u want?
Gma: Dont pretend sick la. Call u do work then sick ady.
Me: Im really sick!
Gma: Yala yala. Faster.. Fetch me to my fren's hse!
Me: Now? I dont know if i can drive, i cant even walk properly. Tonight can ah?
Gma: Now la. ANd dont pretend ady.
Me: I really cannot. I duwan accident. Tonight la?
Gma: Yaaa when u wanna go out with yr all yr boy frens then u wont b sick one! 'Fat hau' arr?
Me: No.. I really sick now!
Gma: Faster.. Take yr car keys.
Me: *really no energy to argue ady* Aiyah, i really cannot la. Tonight i fetch u thr la. *Start to walk away*
Gma: Wahh big ady, then smart ady la! Nonit listen to me anymore la! *Bla bla bla blaaaaa*

Argh she's really killing me.. real LOUDLY. I really cant stand her voice buzzing arnd my ears constantly. Okay back to da topic.

I was lying down like a dead fish on my bed n i felt someone pinch my legs. I look up, and thr she was. *Bla bla bla bla blaaaa* "Faster, fetch me out now! NOW!!" Arghh then i decided, aiyar okay la, if accident also die together la, who cares! So i had to send her to her frens place, wait for her for more than an hour, then bring her home. How i wish i had da guts to just dump her thr n lose her forever. But aih, im so useless. Haha. But thnk goodness we didnt die in a car wreck today. Only some close encounters, but im still vr much alive.

Then when we were back home, i had to make her lunch n iron her clothes. I simply do la tho, no energy for perfection today. And if she gets food poisonin today, it must be me. Muahahaha! How i wish! Just another unrealised evil thought. Blah. Arghh.

Thnk goodness i have so many frens tht love n support me. Or i dunno how i'd survive. Im now contemplating if it is okay to hate. For now I dont hate my gma bcoz it is my life-long principle to NOT hate someone. But thts prolly d only reason thts holding me back from hating her. I am THIS <-> close to hating her! Arghh. Someone plz safe me from this mess!

So is it okay to hate?

Hmmph.. Guess u could call me a lousy blogger now. It had been almost 2 weeks since my last entry. Im so very terribly sorry for not updatin as frequent now, but plz do pardon me for i am goin thru some (ahem!) changes in my life now (and also, busy with college)

Alright, since im quite terribly drained right now i shall declare this post to be highly un-entertainin n purely informational (updates of my life la, haha, not like u wanna know rite?) But wht da heck, im so sick of living my life for others n this is my blog so u will just hafta bear with me or leave la! Muahaha.

Okay, here we go. In da past 2 weeks...

I WAS BUSY WITH: Fui Kiat and Fui Kiat and Fui Kiat and my tons of assignments tht is piling up constantly every moment, even as i type now. Plus, I had an Environmental Science class trip to Bkt Merah Laketown Resort last weekend. Plus plus, the SOUL Architecture Workshop is coming up (17th to 22nd Apr) so we have some preparations to do. Plus plus plus, History Test 2 will b on 25th Apr so i will hafta research + study my butt off again.

I MISSED: Lotsa Sleep. My family. My bed n my piggy pillow n my blanket. And some classes (Overslept la, hehe!) Oh, not to forget, my Yoga sessions as well.

I DIDNT MISS: My grandma! Like, duhhh! And da chores at home.

I HAD MY: Hospital check-ups. Left side mirror replaced. Car fixed n serviced. Already-severed eyebags enlarged. Killer-design for my art gallery approved by evil Mr Why. Yayyy!

Hmmph cant think of anythin else ady. But everythin's quite fine with me la. Had all my meals, never hungried. Guaaaai leh? (Aiyar, i big girl ady la ok? Dont keep askin me to eat, i will naturally eat when i am hungry!)

Anyway, i think my next post will come, like, a week later. I promise i will find some blog-worthy to post! Promise promise promise. Anyway just informin yaa.. Da coming week:

I WILL NOT BE ARND. I will b attending an almost-one-week-long-architectural-workshop in UPM (thts in Serdang) from 17th to 22nd April. Hmmph i dunno if i m really excited coz stewpid Mr Why is not so keen on lettin us go for da workshop so he's prolly not goin to extend our studio datelines. Plus, its like gettin in da way of all my submissions of all my other subjects n my tests. Arghh.

I WILL CONTINUE TO GROW MY EYEBAGS. Yahh they say goin to da workshop would be soooo fun, but i think i will hafta bring my history Building List thr to research n study. Argh. And i will hafta work on my drawings on my studio design. Hope all goes well for me. 

I WILL LOOK FOR AN INTERNSHIP. For da coming semester break. Industrial Trainin is one of da most important things to an Architecture student, so haih, hafta work for no $$ during da holls lor! Anyone know anywhr to work? Preferably in Subang or PJ so i dont hafta travel too far to work. Plz inform me ya?

Okay la, quite detailed right.. my report? Haha. Just informin la, i know u guys kan cheong me. Dont worry lo, i will take care of myself! So NOW: IM GOING TO TRY TO FINISH UP MY HISTORY AND LAW. Ciaoz peeps, miss ya all!