hey peeps..i have been back from pulau sibu for more than a week now, but havent had da chance to blog.. stupid connection prob lar! everyone's so mad at me n scoldin me for not updatin.. so so so sorry! i wonder if u guys still care to click to my blog now!

hmm pulau sibu is a beautiful island, especially all yr beloved frens are thr on vacation with u! really had lotsa fun..! i m kinda busy now so i cant really elaborate panjang panjang but i shall post all da pics here.. let da pics do da talkin, so here we go!

Tht's nads, hongleong n me upon arrival at da jetty...


our guys.


my lovely girl friends.


jordan, nads, jeanee, me, vivien, michelle first moments on da beach..


nads: my ultimate n best hangout whenever, wherever!


chern, hongleong, me, lesmond, gillian outside da chalets.


da naughtiest-lecturer-i-know lim jee yat n i.


da BBQ night. sittin: tzongwei, fuvoon, vince. standin: weeliong, kwokkeong, me.


syaz, me, liz. say NO to straight hair. muahaha!


group pic.


a more complete one.


last day *sobs* most of da advance intake sem 3 is in da pic.. n i screamed when i felt myself lifted of da grnd.. thts da price of being da lightest girl in class! argh..

here's a few pics outta my big big big collection of photos from my camera.. will upload more when i get da pics from other cameras! btw i miss pulau sibu.. n everyone arnd here.. muacks..

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Things happened to me today. Im unhappy. But i do not wish to mention. Cant concentrate makin my model. Havin migraine but cant sleep. Argh. Surfin arnd then saw some quizzes, so do lor, hope this will make me feel at least abitttt better.

Honesty thingy

*Hey honestly, where ya at?:
At home.

*Honestly, have you ever had a plastic surgery?:
Errr beauty is not havin anythin added or taken away, some Renaissance architect said this. And i second.

*Honestly, have you ever failed a subject at
school?:
Yes. Stewwwpid Pendidikan Moral.

*Honestly, what's on your mind?:
Both my paternal n maternal grannies.

*Honestly, who are you chatting online with?:
Liseong, Hongleong, Weikiat, Kenny, Jon.

*Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be
doing right now?:
Workin on my models. Arghhh.

*Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?:
Yup, like 4 times ady.

*Honestly, who is your bestfrend in the world?:
Right now? Nads. Lots more back then. Missed all of ya!

*Honestly, who is the hottest person you know?:
Hottest? Hmm cant tell..

*Honestly, are you a good friend?:
Think so? I can do anythin for my frens.

*Honestly, do you really think going to school is
all that important?:
It depends. Only if yre really interested in wht u are learning to become. No point wastin parent's money if yre not interested. Btw i love Taylor's SAQS!!!

*Honestly, what are your dreams about, mostly?:
Lotsa nightmares lately.

*Honestly, did you have sex today?:
No! Neither did i yesterday, or da day b4 or da day b4 yest's yest..........

*Honestly, what are you so happy about right
now?:
Im studyin Architecture.

*Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?:
My pathetic hsework, and stuff tht had been vr much derived from tht.

*Honestly, how old are you now?:
19.

*Honestly, who are you missing?:
Someone.

*Honestly, have you ever stole something?:
Errr.. I ate ppl's food.. Considered a?

*Honestly, what song are you listening to right
now?:
Im not listenin to anythin..

*Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very
moment?
Honestly? I want to b left alone right now.

*Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?:
Forehead. So romantic.

*Honestly, do you have a deadly disease?:
Not yet.

*Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
I dunno if i shld hate her.

*Honestly, who do you wanna hug right now?:
Erm, my piggy pillow... Miss piggy so much!

*Honestly, are you bored?:
Kinda.

*Honestly, who do you wanna slap right now?:
Noone.

20 QUESTIONS thingy.

1. Seen a Ghost ?
--> No comments.

2. Smoked ?
--> Nope, Liveeism forbids smokin..

3. Lost Your Cellphone ?
--> Yes, wht do u expect from LIVEE?

4. Got A Boyfriend/Girlfriend In IRC ?
--> I dont even log in IRC.

5. Lost Your Best Friend Forever ?
--> Yes, Daniel n his GF died in a car crash in Perth back in 2001. *Tears*

6. Dreamt of being a Celeb ?
--> Erm no..

7. Had Nightmares ?
--> Yes.....

8. Loved 2 Boys/Girls In The Same Time ?
--> Nope, my heart is only big enough for one.

9. Met Your Fave Celeb ?
--> YES! VIctor Wong, da Corrs. They rule forever n ever more.

10. Been Kissed On Your Lips?
--> Erm yes. 1st kiss stolen by some stewpid guy back during kindergarten days when we acted in Sleepin Beauty. Will personally kill him if i do meet him again..

11. Had a Younger Boy/Girlfriend ?
---> Yes, by few months la..

12. Had A Pet ?
--> Yes, Chip n Dale, puppies..

13. Had A Long Relationship ?
--> Yes.

14. Bought Some Expensive Thing To Your SpEc
OneS ?
--> YES i rather spend on them than on myself.

15. Fought With Your Boy/Girlfriend ?
--> DUHHH..

16. Had Love Triangle ?
--> Erm cannot consider so laa, i nv even liked da guy, but they think tht im da 3rd party just bcoz he likes me. Life is unfair, as usual.

17. Had An Accident ?
--> Yes. I am, afterall, injury-and-accident prone.

18. Slept In Your Class When The Teacher
Taught ?
--> Most of da time during my secondary years.

19. Tried To Kill Yourself ?
--> NO! Thts a stupid thing to do.

20. Been To A Pub/Club?
--> No.

WHAT...

..is in your closet that you treasure most?
= Err all my levi's jeans + skirts?

..song that makes you wanna dance?
= Happy/lovey-dovey songs.

..do you bring anywhere with you?
= HANDPHONE! CASH!

..do you do first upon waking up?
= Try to go back to sleep.

..time do you usually go to sleep?
= Any chance i get.

..is the scariest movie ever?
= Quite alot laaaa~

..makes you tremble?
= Hamsap stares.

..type of clothes do you like wearing?
= Comfy clothes.

..have you been thinking lately?
= My love life.

..part of your body do you adore?
= Eyes, i think?

..have you done to pamper yourself lately?
= Havent really pampered myself much since Architecture came into my life.

..is your sleepwear?
= Big big big Tshirt.

..do you want to add up to your room?
= Drawing table!

..scent/perfume do you like best from a
man/woman?
= Nothin too provokin or suffocatin, somethin fresh n comfortable.

..would you rather have -coffee or iced tea?
= neither. i rather have H2O.

..is your best trait?
= I dunno lar, u tell me?

..what would you rather do -go out or sleep?
= Depends.

..would you rather engaged yourself into-
basketball or scuba diving?
= Both sounds great to me.

..in your house do you want to get rid of?
= All my mom's junks.

..is sexy for you?
= Being natural.

..is a romantic date for you?
= Anythin sweet n simple.

..have you eaten before logging in?
= Yes.

..do you think of long-distance love affair?
= Im not quite sure abt this lately.

..do you pray you rather not have?
= Im okay with myself now. I know i can take da challenges comin up.

..was the last movie you watched in the
theater?
= Dodgeball.

..do you prefer- jeans or skirt?
= Denim skirts rule! But i wear jeans more often ler..

..do you do -jog or swim?
= Swimmin is more fun.

..name would you rather have?
= LIVEE is da best name ever. Im still wonderin how my genius parents came up with this.

..makes you lose your temper?
= Messin with my loved ones, my friends, my siblings.. Y'll b amazed how angry i get.

..food are you craving for lately?
= sushi, again...

the world needs now?
= love, faith, true friendships, and recycling campaigns.


[1] How well must he/she know u?
Very well.

[2] Does looks counts?
Its not everythin, but it still counts a little.

[3] Must he/she have an X-Factor
Must have chemistry kua..

[4] Drive a car/bike?
CAR! No doubt abt tht.

[5] Go clubbing often?
Nope, please.

[6] Feel secure with him/her?
WHt a question, obviously larrrrrr...

[7] Good at cracking jokes?
Erm, yes. But i think its quite easy to satisfy me, i laugh at almost everythin..

[8] Should he/she be always spending all da time with u?
Nope.

[9] Conservative towards you?
Im quite conservative in some ways also, so okay also la.. Just DONT stop me from talkin to other guys, thts da stupidest thing to do.

[10] A quick thinker?
Er yes?

[11] Should he/she have a good sense of
dressing?
Yes, if possible?

[12] Preferably what kind of hairstyle? Including
colour..
Look nice on him then okay ady la.. I prefer black hair tho.

[13] Should he/she be the one making decisions
all the time?
Nope.

[14] Romantic?
In his own charming ways, nonit purposely go buat buat romantic.

[15] Shy?
Thts cute. Shy guys are sooo cute.

[16] Hot-Tempered?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[17] Loud or Quiet?
Somewhr in btw.

[18] Generous or Stingy?
Generous, but dont simply spend lar.

[19] Kind or Heartless?
Kind.

[20] Cute or Sweet?
Im greedy, both!

[21] Vain or Casual?
Casual.

[22] Punk or Hipster?
Ughh..

[23] Smart or Stupid?
Smart..

[25] *For girls* Must he dress up all the time?
Dress appropriately lar, tht shld b fine.

[26] Should he/she pamper u?
Yes.. Sure must sayang sayang lar..

[27] Should he/she be open minded when
speaking to u?
Yup.

[28] Should he/she be well-educated?
Well-mannered is a better word.

[29] Good Looking+Dumb OR Ugly+Intelligent
I DUWAN TO CHOOOOOOOSE!

> [30] Possessive+faithful OR freedom+unfaithful
Possessive+faithful is better kua.

> [32] Should you be able to see a future ahead
for both of you?
Erm, just see how things go..

[33] Do u think this kind of girl/guy exists?
Yes, i do.



Hmm i dunno if i do feel better, but mayb i m not so angry now laaaa.. Hmmph, but i do know i wasted lotsa time here... And da stupid building list is takin forever to download! ARghhHHhh...

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Hmm i got some Pulau Sibu pics from Bryan, Kwokkeong n Melv ady... So here they are...

ok, this is one of our night beach walks. walkin on da beach at night is da bestest thing to do! sooooo fun! and so weeliong started this fire somewhr by da beach, we're so proud of him, so he's my new hero! hahaha... [from kkeong's cam]


just arrived at da jetty after a long long night on da bus, all excited and stuff.. [from bry's cam]


nads, bryan, and i. [from bry's cam]


hmm.. one of da 'triangle chalets'.. cute right? but i dont think its vr comfy inside lor! luckily im stayin in one of da regular ones.. [from bry's cam]


ok, my chalet looks somethin like this.. (but this is melv's one la, nads n i stay just next to him) [from melv's cam]


nice scenery rite? i think melv can go bcome professional photographer ady la, then can take nice nice pics of me ma, hehe! so...kyle, manda, sam, aileen...got regret or not? go langkawi buat apa? haha. [from melv's cam]


this was during da 2nd day, when everyone else went snorkellin and we stayed back. lazy to go ler.. so we were just chillin arnd waitin for lunch.. n btw thts nads, bry, fkiat n i![from bry's cam]


last day, bfore leavin da island.. our grp (semester 3 advance intake, architecture+QS students) pic, so nice rite! i miss pulau sibu!!!!!!!!!!!


another grp pic.. I MISS PULAU SIBU!!!!

ok so thr goes d other set of 'selected' pics lar.. so lazy to upload all here.. wanna see more? ask for my webshots address personally, i will give it to u if we're close enough!

btw im havin a vr bad sore throat now, my voice is super sexy! i've got presentation on Building Services 2 tmr samore, so wish me luck ya! ciaoz peeps, cya next post!

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Hmm da workload is ever increasin n nv ending. Sorry i havent been writin alot. I guess this is da price to pay for takin da course of my passion. Whts da price, u ask me? Good question. Everythin's gone wrong since i step into TCPJ this yr. Oh well, almost everythin. Not tht they're all closely linked to Architecture. But in a way, i guess they do change things a little, bits of here n thr.

Y'd know tht my sick gma in da hosp havent been really well recently if u read my previous posts. I think tht came on tough on her, and pretty tough on my parents as well. And i cant really spend time visitin her at da hosp due to my workload, but i did try. My trials only got me sick n begin to look like a walkin-n-talkin-zombie. And now, realizin tht everyone's life hafta go on, my gma refuses to see me. Oh great. *Sigh*

Then thrs my other gma who is constantly pickin on my faults. I have been constantly wonderin why it is so but i havent really got a right answer to convince myself. Perhaps coz im not her grandson. In this case, i guess gender DOES matter. My models are bein destroyed so often (dont ask why) tht i am now seriously sick of buildin a new one. Extreme sicko case. Oh well, always look at da brighter side, as i always tell everyone arnd me. I guess she is so particular abt everythin i do bcoz she wants me to improve and b a better person. And tht means she loves me.... Right? Err nvm.

How great! With all these and all da blood flushed out of my cheeks already, now i think im goin thru somethin worse than i can imagine. I have always been in da center of my little own barbie-doll world, havin all my frens takin care of me all da time, i think i have forgotten how it is to feel empty. Or mayb i havent even tried feelin empty before my so-called entire life of nineteen yrs. Erm dont ask me why i feel so. I have my reasons and im not ready to share it with anyone. And if yre close enough a fren, u shld already know why. SO PLZ DONT ASK.

Oh well, i guess its not d end of da world. How bad can things be? Its already da worstest now, it cannot go any worse. And besides, thrs a rainbow outside my window now. How bad can it be?! Things can only go better and i shall be surrounded with hope all once again. And besides, takin Architecture is not all tht bad. Its somethin tht i really love, and i guess i just needed to release my anger somewhr. And well, i met so so so many wonderful ppl in SAQS who nv fails to pick me up whenever im down, who listens to me when im frustrated, who gives me da best solutions to da worst problems, and who goofs arnd to make me laugh whenever im sad. Thx all of ya!

And liseong, thx for everythin u gave n did for me. Yknow i really appreciate it. Im vr sorry abt wht had happened recently. Plz do forgive me. Y'll always have a space here in my heart.

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I always wonder whts tht in ppl tht makes them different from each other? In my perception la, i mean.

One thing, at least, tht i have came to realize is tht i feel my best arnd my bestest friends who are naturally selfless, kind and toleratin. In contrast, obviously, i really really really dont like ppl who practises fakerism (fakerism, as i refer to, is an art of being deceitful and totally untrue to da ppl arnd u n even yrself) and who are selfish, yet pretends tht theyre not. (thts like YUCKS!)

Yet, da MOST MOST MOST disappointin part has been da fact tht thr is probably no way i can change anyone's character/behaviour. Which again leaves me feelin stupid n naive, when i actually thought i could do somethin to change da hard cold fact tht someone can actually be so evil.

Then so so so many ppl came and tell me tht thrs nothin i can do, tht its useless; but i somehow didnt wanna accept tht simply bcoz i always want to assure myself tht thr are nice ppl out thr. I always hate to admit tht da world is not as simple as i want it to be. Saddenin rite?

But then again, i read tht "a man's character is his fate"-Heraclitus.
So wht does it mean? Does it mean tht da whole world is right, tht i cant change him? Hmmph.. But then again, if its his fate, then it shldnt b his fault rite? Err wht does it really mean? Means forgive? ....or NOT?!?!!! Argghh..

Okay, i think i shld just stick to my original piece of mind. I still want to blif tht da world is just a beautiful beautiful place. Erm, even if all these ppl hafta come n step step step all over my head. I shall forgive them. My theory: selfishness must always be forgiven, bcoz thr is no hope of a cure. Okay tht shall conclude these stupid annoyin thoughts on my mind n keep my brain workin without interruptions for da next few hrs, i hope.

And btw, im just so happy tht my true friends love me sooo much. I must have done somethin soooo right, God must send them to me. Yay! And i still blif tht thrs good in every person out thr. It is only whether i can see it or not. (Err right?) Nvm la, im just so glad tht i can confirm tht thr are nice, selfless, true friends out thr.

Afterall.. "You are, when all is done - just wht u are." -Johann Wolfgang (or somethin liddat).

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